1. |
Too Much
03:12
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Yeah, I’ve heard it said,
The grass is greener where you water it
But sometimes it just rains.
Got a wolf to kill and one to feed
But what happens when you feel the need
To let them both off their chains.
Novelty–try it all twice,
But only if the goods are nice
The highest quality.
Not sure why it always seems
To bore me until I get the means
To change my reality.
Smoke too much, drink too much
Joke too much, think too much
Eat too much, sleep too much
Beat too much, get in deep too much
It's too much, too much
And never enough.
Always must remain my choice
Cuz I hate it when I lose my voice
Just want to be most-free.
Don’t try to tell me what I like
I’ll only do it when I’m feeling right
Can only be one me, yeah, but I…
Sit too much, dump too much
Shit too much, bump too much
Work too much, rest too much
Shirk too much, not my best too much
It's too much, too much
And never enough.
Yeah, I’m feeling down,
But it’s not like I can lose a crown
That was never mine to wear.
Not a leader, no one follows me.
I was never shit. The darkness swallows me.
It’s almost too much to bear.
Dish too much, dope too much
Wish too much, hope too much
Whine too much, bitch too much
Shine too much, live rich too much
It’s too much, too much
But I am enough. Yeah, I am enough.
I am enough.
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2. |
Uknowit
04:57
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Since the day we met you kept me closer than a friend
Had my suspicions from the start
Always wanted more time than I was willing to spend
I breathe easier when we’re apart.
Your company feels like an audition
For a role I never wanted to play
I’m opting out of this conscription
It’s time we went our separate ways.
Uknowit, don’cha know,
Uknowit, don’t cha?
Uknowit, don’cha know,
Uknowit
There’s nothing wrong with craving attention
I understand your need to feel seen
But your noise pollution is worth a mention
I’d rather keep my airspace clean.
You think you’re subtle but I see it
Undermine my joy at every turn
I’m gonna like the way I feel, I guarantee it
When you’re no longer my concern.
Uknowit, don’cha know,
Uknowit, don’t cha?
Uknowit, don’cha know,
Uknowit
Truth be told, I feel like I’m the one to blame
For letting this go on so long
Should have told you right away that I don’t feel the same
I know you think ghosting you was wrong.
In my defense though my message was loud and clear
Said bye to you and hi to space
Ambivalence piled up over all the years
And I’d rather bow out with some grace.
Not saying you’re a bad person
You’re just not my cup of tea
Real ones kick back and take it easy
Not raise my anxiety.
You beg for a way to fix it
You ask me what you can do
But you should just save your breath
Cuz tell you true, I just don’t like being around you.
Uknowit, don’cha know,
Uknowit, don’t cha?
Uknowit, don’cha know,
Uknowit
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3. |
Deferred
04:41
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Been a long time since I felt that I needed you
Good to remind myself that we’ll never be through
I recall the moment when I felt this turn into work
Your grip on my chain is always going to hurt
Thought for a while I could moderate
Gotta put you down before it’s too late
You’re my addiction, you take but you never give
I know I could do better, I know that I want to live
Gotta give you up (Lessons learned, scars earned)
Because you bring me down (Bridges burned, tides turned)
Overflowing my cup (Pain inured, say the word [NO])
Feet on solid ground (Illness cured, death deferred)
I’m done taking your abuse
I know it’s time to cut you loose
It’s clear you’re toxic, your slow burn makes me seethe
Upset, unhealthy, around you I can hardly breathe
Can’t stand to smell you on my skin, when we’re apart
Can’t deny your rot within, my poor heart
I’m in control now, you’ve got no hold on me
Light, guide me right, I feel so close to free
Gotta give you up (Lessons learned, scars earned)
Because you bring me down (Bridges burned, tides turned)
Overflowing my cup (Pain inured, say the word [NO])
Feet on solid ground (Illness cured, death deferred)
I know that it’s my choice Won’t let you steal my voice
Took my time, Took my money, Took my joy, my nose stayed runny
Take back my vibrant health, Take back and share my wealth
So long I’ve been so depressed, So fuckin ready to be rid of your stress.
Once I thought that you were fun
Feel so relieved that we are done
Can’t let my guard down though, you’re only one stop away
But I’m on a different road, and I’m so damn glad to say …
That I gave you up (Lessons learned, scars earned)
Because you bring me down (Bridges burned, tides turned)
Overflowing my cup (Pain inured, say the word [NO])
Feet on solid ground (Illness cured, death deferred)
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4. |
Not Your Problem
03:47
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If time could rewind I would take it all back
All those sharp, true words I wrote that one time you were kinda wack
You’re not obliged to tell me the reason why you split,
But you sure take every opportunity you get to make me feel like shit You don’t
Care enough
It hurt my feelings when you put me down in a crowd
That time you sent me reeling but that’s because I’m too proud
Kinda wish I was the angry type, but it really just makes me sad
You always assume the worst from me, guess you can only give what you’ve ever had: Nobody to
Care enough
Yeah, you love to gossip, you’re petty like it’s your job
It’s such a pity to see you turn into such a snob
Wish you had the heart to go along with that soul,
But that would take real work from you, will you ever feel whole so you can
Care enough
You know we work well together
I know I can improve
I’m not in a competition
I’m not jockin your moves
I know I can be lazy
Sorry, that’s my brand of crazy
But I’ve never been your problem
And if I ever was I would never ever trust you to
Care enough
Never introspective except when it’s all about your thing
Back then I was happy to listen til I realized you’d never change
It’s really not my issue, mama, and I definitely don’t miss your drama
I just hope that time and effort heals your trauma so you can
Care enough
If you could care then I would there, If only you'd care. Have I had enough?
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5. |
Knew Better
04:17
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Shoulda known better than to doubt your intuition!
Shoulda known better than to think it’d be just fine (just fine).
Now you know better: always set the right intention.
Time to be better: never ever dull your shine.
Gotta step up to it. There is nothing to it!
When the place is time you just have to exist.
Be present—do not falter. Come approach the altar.
Make the sacrifice: pure bliss.
(Pure bliss) Transcendental existence
(Compound interest) It’s my transcendental existence
Blank space surrounds truth. Turn silence into golden.
Inaction astounds proof. Why let it go to waste?
No obligation. We will never be beholden.
No command performance. Nothing left to do but base.
Everything all about you. If nothing else, just be true.
You’re at your best when you follow your heart.
Stay on your journey. Why ever worry?
No thought to finish—just start.
(Just start) Transcendental existence
(Your heart) It’s my transcendental existence
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Jess Lake Maryland
Vocal-driven, danceable R&B with a moody edge.
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